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To be Moses.


To be Moses.

I had given this as a testimony last Friday at a student's night meeting, but I thought I would add this as part of my entry collection as this is a read that could be of benefit to others.

The last few weeks, especially in dealing with the many complications that I have experienced with the members of the group, as well as the church, has been one that has continually challenged, yet has also strengthened me.

I know that the Lord has shown how much I can learn from the character of Moses. The Lord is indeedly great in what He does for us, or to us for that matter. I was reflecting upon this matter as I was watching the movie Evan Almighty at my friend's home yesterday night.

Evan Almighty is the parody of a man, who had been assigned to build an ark. The reason for him to build is yet unknown, and when the entire city laughs at him, the wife decided to take his wife and 3 children to her parent's. Yet one day, God (in the form of Morgan Freeman) appears to her when she is having a meal at this diner telling her that God doesn't build families, but gives them opportunities to become intimate families.

I believe that through these "opportunities" throughout the year so far, He has continually built up my faith in small pieces. Indeed I see much of myself reflected in the character of Moses, whom God changes and chips at his personality to become a man who was a stutterer & relied on his brother Aaron to be his spokesperson and finally to be THE spokesperson himself to speak to the Pharoah of Egypt himself!

To only just read about the story of Moses and to actually live it out are two different things. I believe that the Lord prepared me for this beforehand. I know (and to all who have known my story), the problems I have had gone through, and yet I believe these same "opportunities" have made me more fearsome, and stronger.

Not bitter but joyful because as I look back, I realise how much the Lord has made me learn to deal with the issues I am facing. One who was fearful of confrontations. One who afraid to make a simple phonecall. One who was always waiting for someone to be mediator, and not realising how much of the problems could have been solved had she faced the issue straight on ....

Now that I look back at it, I believe the Lord has been wanting me to do the very things I had refused on doing.... I guess He could have made things easier for me, but He did not by letting things remain difficult for me so I had no other choice but to do it.

How much of my identity I have found in Christ! Thank you God for your love to us and how much you understand us!

Praise the Lord!
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Awaken not.


Awaken not.

Hush, thy name which is called love,
Brush not against my brow.
Take thyself away from mine heart,
Awaken not till your song is done.

Hush, thy name which is called love,
What right have you to mine heart,
To play your sad song,
Which rises tears from my eyes.

Hush, thy name which is called love,
Keep your sad sad song,
Arouse not nor awaken,
But sleep in gentle peace into the night.
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Perhaps, after all . . .


Perhaps, after all . . .

Perhaps, after all,
romance did not come into one's life with pomp and blare,
like a gay knight riding down;
perhaps it crept to one's side like an old friend through quiet ways;
perhaps it revealed itself in seeming prose,
until some sudden shaft of illumination flung athwart it's pages betrayed the rhythm and the music;
perhaps... perhaps... love unfolded naturally out of a beautiful friendship,
as a golden-hearted rose slipping from its green sheath.

Anne of Avonlea..(L.M.Montgomery).

Perhaps love comes when most unexpected.

Perhaps. Perhaps, after all ...
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Be still and know.


Be still and know.

To the many who know me, perhaps I have known as the happy-go-lucky & loud girl. Maybe I AM during those times when I actually do feel that way. The past few weeks have been really trying. . . from the frying pan into the fire, as the popular saying goes.

I did not find out till the day prior to my presentation that I have been cut of the group. I really wanted to contribute as part of the presentation, but things do not always work out as wanted. What is infuriating is when team members beat around the bush, and are not direct causing me to waste my time waiting for them when the time could have been spent for better use (like doing my assignment). I am fortunate that my lecturer has been understanding all this while, and perhaps, as my cousin says perhaps she was just trying to be diplomatic?

I am blessed to have my housemates Norine, Myriam and also Samantha who showed much concern & prayed for me over the situation. Even though situations are trying, I believe that the Lord has shown me many new things throughout this time. I am learning to take things as they come and find my identity in Christ.

Other things of a positive note is that the issue between a group leader and I is resolved, thanks to the assistance of Norine. I shall no longer dwell on the issue as of this time henceforth.

To end, I post here the song that has helped uplift my spirits during this interlude of events.

Hide me now, under Your wings
Cover me, within Your mighty hand

When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with You above the storm
Father, You are King over the flood
I will be still, and know You are God

Find rest my soul, in Christ alone
Know His power, in quietness and trust
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Today was Brandon, Henry, Kevin, Jiaren and Deni's graduation ceremony. And.... I didn't know that Brandon has a twin brother!! (that was *scary!) They talk, and sound the same....I was like, what the...!

I also bumped into Jacqueline, Bee Ling & Dimple at Grand Central! Omigosh.....
it was their graduation and they decided to head Down Under to have theirs here. It was of most surprise. They were staying at one of my current classmate's home nearby.

To all of who have passed, a word of Congratulations... Bon Voyage to Deni who leaves next week..

(will post up pictures later, when I am a bit more free).
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Frustration & Atonement.


Frustration & Atonement.

Last week, I had a friend whom I had invited to the potluck. As the person who invited her, I felt responsible to ensure that she had an enjoyable time during the event. Unfortunately, that didn't work out as I thought it could.

Out of an entire house full overflowing with people, it really made me so seething mad that no one had the sensitivity nor were observant enough to come and talk to her, even after I had given some prompting.

The other was that I was feeling really sick on Wednesday. You know the old adage, misery loves company? I called up people during that period of time, and what was most exasperating was that people neither answered, nor returned the call. Its hard to put into words how I felt during that period of time, but after which I just felt that it was really much too difficult a task for me to have to speak to the people involved.

During those few days, I decided that a time of isolation would do me much good in helping me to put things into perspective. I decided to skip on the friday youth meetings, as well as any appearance of mine throughout the weekend, and keep a low profile.

However last sunday, instead of heading to the church which I normally did, I decided to head to the one that my housemate attends. It was a good (excuse) for me to check out other churches as I had not really done that in a long long time...

I was asked to go to a new mate's home (for the reason of an assignment discussion). It was there that the people (it was a group of them la) had asked me about my disappearance, and I frankly and directly told them about what that happened.

How shall I say what the result of it was?

The next few succeeding days saw an improvement in my demeanor. On a more positive note, I would say that on the day of my disappearing act, there were others few who had done the same. Surprisingly maybe due to lack of "volume" that I am renowned for, I guess people noted that I was not present more than others... :-P

Today I decided to head down to Brisbane for a lawatan tergempar with Kevin, Seng Yee, John & (of course) met up with Aaron at Roma St. Station. Normally I do not partipate in these outings as I am one who plan my outings (to maximise my time there, of course!) but I have absolutely no idea what drove me to do that. If Kevin had said so earlier, we would have booked a car down to Brisbane and not have needed to walk a la Amazing Race, as Aaron aptly calls it. I did enjoy my time talking to the group (and Aaron was his...umm... Aaron self). Which reminds me I should not take what he says too seriously at any time soon...

I would loved to have met up with Jason, & Leon, but of course it was too tergempar for that to happen.. Maybe another time le...

At this point of time, there are only a few issues on top of my head... My assignment due next week (Friday to be exact), my pract (that starts after the semester break), and this issue with a a group leader that I have been keeping my distance from (and hopefully it will work out for the best).
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